A Glimpse

all the old feelings come rushing back

all of the pictures i painted over and over in my head

all the scenarios of happiness and joy

all the what-ifs and if-onlys 

then it increasingly vanishes like all the rest

it leaves me with a warm chill at first

then after it settles 

it's back to my reality 

back to the life i've made

i do my best to convince myself

it was all for the best 

and i guess this is how it was supposed to be